 To say the least, it's high time I stop giving myself excuses. Everything, but. I've pushed back so many things which I told myself I have to do. Part of me wonders whether I truly want them in the first place. Or whether I'm just going through the motions, for the sake of it? The past couple of days have seen me doing absolutely nothing, letting myself escape by busying myself with mundane things (No, really.) I've literally been hiding out at home, giving myself all sorts of excuses, procrastinating through various online means, knowing that precious time is flying by. Knowing that I should be out there, getting things done. Perhaps this is just another bout of my anti-social side/ cough*Procrastination*cough. The only company I seem to crave are from a precious few. Or maybe I'm just doing what I do best, leaving all the important things to the last minute, because I don't want to think of them right now. I really, don't. Urgh. And the nights, those sleepless nights. I am exhausted, yet sleep fails me. I watch the sun rise every morning before tossing restlessly in my sheets only to awake mere hours after. A good night's sleep simply escapes me. I really just want a good night's rest. I think it'll make a world of a difference. Maybe it's true, (despite how totally PDAgrossx10 this sounds) maybe, just maybe. I need to have you by my side, to be wrapped in you, to have a good night's rest. Considering our screwed up sleeping habits, I think some time in bed will do both of us, a whole load of good. Soon, soon.
It's 12am again. Great, yet another day goes by. I'm going to try to sleep now. Fingers crossed for a good night's rest. I honestly think it's my sleep deprived state talking . But, since the start of 2010, I've had some pretty amazing moments with loved ones. Which I'll write about another day (: Can you believe it? Singapore in <9 days! |
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